What used to make me happy? 

nickdparker2 Comments
Lately I’m struggling to enjoy anything, I feel completely numb. I used to laugh and smile and enjoy the time I spent with friends. I used to enjoy going out to bars and clubs and meeting new people, now I feel nervous even talking to new people. Most of the time I put on this happy confident persona but its just an act. Inside I’m terrified, I have no confidence at all.
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I don’t know who I am anymore. How do I get the old me back?

There has to be more than this

nickdparker1 Comment

So, at the moment I’m working a Monday to Friday 9 to 5 job mainly driving around London delivering fire equipment. I don’t hate it and the money is ok but the stress of driving in town some days is Un-bearable.

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Sitting there in traffic for hours on end watching other people driving lavish cars living a lavish life dressed from head to toe in designer gear, even the kids are waring Prada, Armani, Gucci, designer shades and handbags. Then there’s me, sitting alone in the van being passed by a Ferrari, bentley, an Aston, another Ferrari. Dreaming of a better life thats never going to happen.
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I used to have ambition, I thought I could do anything, but then the reality creeps up on you that you’re just like every other working class person, struggling to make a living and for what? Do we live to work or work to live? Is there another way?
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Im going to find out!!